The Regrets

It’s Sunday and I’m so bored. I went partying last night with friends and went home at around 8 am in the morning. Yes 8am in the morning! Don’t ask me what I was doing since Doce closes at around 6am. Details will be on another entry.

So I though I should post this picture I grabbed from a friend of a friend in Facebook.
We all have regrets, both personal, professional and of course our Love lives.. Well this one mainly focuses on the Love life aspect..

Someone once said to me that the truth hurts but later on our body will learn to adopt with the pain and soon we would have learned to cope up.

Enjoy!

A Different kind of High

Last Saturday Lexmark being a socially responsible company had two major events.
One was Gawad Kalinga’s Home building activity and the second was a Dental Mission.
I was supposed to go home early and rejuvenate (Since I came to work early); but KD asked me to join the medical mission. I was at first not interested, I was tired and really could use some shut eye.
Then I realize, instead of sleeping and making myself fat or worst.. alright I don’t know anything worst than me going fat except probably death by Boredom or being run over by a Pedicab.. Instead I used this time to lend a helping hand. Besides I kind of miss being a nurse; this is the perfect opportunity for me to partly practice my profession.

"If you want happiness for an hour, take a nap. If you want happiness for a day, go fishing. If you want happiness for a year, inherit a fortune. If you want happiness for a lifetime, help somebody."
~Chinese Proverb

It was tiring but a very rewarding experience; instead of spending the enitre saturday watching DVD and sleeping. You went into the world and helped out.

Helping people gave me a different kind of high; not like those late night parties or taking prohibited drugs kind of esctacy. it was more of a guilt free high, seeing people specially mothers smile at the fact that thier children will no longer cry in pain, miss a school because of a toothache.

This is the kind of High i want people to experience, a high that i want them to be addicted.

The Man who can't be moved

“Cause If one day you wake up and find your missing me
and your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet
And you'll see me waiting for you on our corner of the street
So I'm not moving, I'm not moving….”

-Script "the man who can't be moved"

Just when I thought

Just when I thought I was free from his spell over me…
I was single and Yes,Quiet happy…

Then I got a message from a friend…
That He is seeing an old friend of mine..
Suddenly.. after I heard the news..

These feelings started to appear out of nowhere…
Love, Jealousy, Hate, Hope
It started to pile up and rise from the depths of my heart
With nowhere to go except in to my eyes…
all these mixed emotions suddenly materialized as it was about to go out...
It became tears…

Just when I thought… i was done with this chapter of my life
But it seems that I am lingering still
Hoping that by doing so…Another page will suddenly appear
That could change the outcome…

Just when I thought that the storm was over.. I realized that the sunshine I felt was it’s eye…

Just when I thought I could start to rebuilt my life after that earthquake that rocked my world to the core.. and Aftershock came…

Just when I thought…

But I know the time will come that I can say that the storm has past or the earthquake is over...
Until such time i have to be strong.. and use this time to love myself more...

Like what the story "Missing Piece meets the Big O"...
I can use this time to liftpullflopliftpullflop... until i become whole.

Feelings

……I wish you would understand………..
……..that the world does not revolve around you and your feelings alone….
….We understood and acknowledged how you felt…
… At least all you could do is acknowledge ours as well…
.. I know it’s not easy having conflicts...
..What more if you are in between it..
..People already got hit with the stray bullets that are being fired by both side…
..We are tip toeing on the Verbal mine field…
..Fearing the next step, on the next day we could get hurt…
..We are not complaining, you are our friend and that’s what friends do..
..But its starting to affect us all..
…All I can say is that...
… We are willing to walk a mile wearing your shoes…
…As long as you willing to walk on ours...

The missing piece meets the Big O

As I was contemplating on my work station on how many hours I slept and if I logged in at that time what time can I actually logged off from work.
I opened my Yahoo Messenger and saw a very interesting status message from an old friend (Louie)

Status Message: Moral lesson: A healthy and lasting relationship consists of two whole individuals.

‘Wow.. That’s quite a mouthful..

“Hey.. Yes it! Do you want me to forward you the email that contains the story?”

“Please do… forward it to my company email add”

“It actually came from James”

Hearing that I actually laughed… Will talk about James some other time!

The story actually reminded of the book “HOPE FOR THE FLOWER”; why? It’s like reading a children’s story book.

I was amazed of the story and how simple the dialogue was yet the lesson was very powerful.
That is why I decided to share it to the world…

ENJOY!

MORAL LESSON: A Healthy Relationship consist of two Whole individuals

THE GREATEST ADVICE

I know that you have probably read this and this has been posted and present on the Blog world for I don’t know since time in memoriam.. Ok maybe I exaggerated a bit.. This is authored by Rick Warren of the Purpose Driven Life and entitled it “The Greatest Advice”



This compilation, along with Bob Ong’s compilation has been my source of Answer, humor and yes even enlightenment in times when I start to question myself and everything around me..

THE GREATEST ADVICE

Rick Warren, the Purpose Driven Life

Don't date because you are desperate.

Don't marry because you are miserable.

Don't have kids because you think your genes are superior.

Don't philander because you think you are irresistible.

Don't associate with people you can't trust.

Don't cheat. Don't lie. Don't pretend.

Don't dictate because you are smarter.

Don't demand because you are stronger.

Don't sleep around because you think you are old enough & know better.

Don't hurt your kids because loving them is harder.

Don't sell yourself, your family, or your ideals.

Don't stagnate!

Don't regress.

Don't live in the past. Time can't bring anything or anyone back.

Don't put your life on hold for possibly Mr. Right.

Don't throw your life away on absolutely Mr. Wrong because your biological clock is ticking.

Learn a new skill.

Find a new friend.

Start a new career.

Sometimes, there is no race to be won, only a price to be paid for some of life's more hasty decisions.

To terminate your loneliness, reach out to the homeless.

To feed your nurturing instincts, care for the needy.

To fulfill your parenting fantasies, get a puppy.

Don't bring another life into this world for all the wrong reasons.

To make yourself happy, pursue your passions & be the best of what you can be.

Simplify your life. Take away the clutter.

Get rid of destructive elements: abusive friends, nasty habits, and dangerous liaisons.

Don't abandon your responsibilities but don't overdose on duty.

Don't live life recklessly without thought and feeling for your family.

Be true to yourself.

Don't commit when you are not ready.

Don't keep others waiting needlessly.

Go on that trip. Don't postpone it.

Say those words. Don't let the moment pass.

Do what you have to, even at society's scorn.

Write poetry.

Love Deeply.

Walk barefoot.

Dance with wild abandon.

Cry at the movies.

Take care of yourself. Don't wait for someone to take care of you.

You light up your life.

You drive yourself to your destination.

No one completes you - except YOU.

It isn't true that life does not get easier with age.

It only gets more challenging.

Don't be afraid. Don't lose your capacity to love.

Pursue your passions.

Live your dreams.

Don't lose faith in God.

Don't grow old. Just grow YOU!

When you give someone your time, you are giving them a portion of your life that you'll never get back.

Your time is your life. That is why the greatest gift you can give to someone is your time.

Relationships take time and effort, and the best way to spell love is T-I-M-E because the essence of love is not what we think or do or provide for others, but how much we give of ourselves.

God is good all the time!

A MUST KIND OF RELATIONSHIP

As I was watching SEX and the City from season 1 to 6 for the nth time, Yes I like to do some re-runs on (That’s my thing let it go!) as i was trying to wait for the next person to sweep me off my feet. I came across a line that really stuck in my head. It’s the last thing Carrie Bradshaw said at the end of Season 6 their last Season.

“Later that day I got to thinking about relationships. There are those that open you up to something new and exotic, those that are old and familiar, those that bring up lots of questions, those that bring you somewhere unexpected, those that bring you far from where you started, and those that bring you back. But the most exciting, challenging and significant relationship of all is the one you have with yourself. And if you can find someone to love the you you love, well, that's just fabulous.”

Then it hit me! This is a relationship that i need to focus, "A MUST KIND OF RELATIONSHIP"...

I haven’t had a relationship with myself for quite sometime now, and I admit I miss that.
Going to the movies alone, walking with nothing but the scenery and your IPOD or my music phone.
Drinking Coffee and reading a good book and going back to my passion writing on my little black book.
Walking with friends aimlessly or just have a sit down discussion over a cup of coffee…

After the Pooh Saga that has left me devastated and made me feel as big would say it

“I’m starting to feel like that needy chick again”.

I have made a decision; I will now focus on building a relationship with myself. It does mean that I will close my door to the possibilities, but how can you create a good relationship with someone when you don’t even have one for yourself.

I have a feeling that this new relationship will make me stronger and will make me a better Person, Son, Friend and Yes! Even a partner… Soon!

SO wish me luck ;)

The Longest Hour

"It was the longest hour of my life, were i have to smile and pretend to be happy, while deep inside i was slowly crying"

After our whole day orientation in my new company, and after eating areound 1/4 of the rice and a lot for fruits and veggie’s for almost a week (Need to Start eating Healthy).

I suddenly felt the urge to eat some greasy and yummy chicken.. KFC perhaps?!
Pulled out my sun cellular phone...

Po: Gwen.. Were you? What you doing now?
G: I just got home, I roamed the street endlessly to tire myself so when i got home i would sleep immediately.
Po: Huh?! What's wrong with you?
G: I don't really want to talk about it.
Po: Ok. Next time then..

Thinking, What the hell ill just continues with my Fat free diet...

G: By the way.. Pooh also texted me. He will be going to SM to eat something.
Po: OK. I really don't have his number (Yes! I deleted his number!)
G: Oh don't worry i texted him that you are also going to SM.
Po: Ok (Secretly Smiling)

We were about to take a tour of the facilities with my new company when my Globe phone vibrated..
After we exchanged a couple of text messages; i suddenly found myself talking to pooh.
Pooh as charming as ever with his big smile, making his eye disappear even with his glasses on.
So we went to KFC and eat dinner ( as always we couldn’t decide were we will eat so picked the nearest one).
I really was not after the Food but i was slowly testing myself.. Am i really over him and ready to move on..

We talked a lot about life in general.
People we know and how his work is and he asked me in return how my work is.
It was the longest hour of my life, were i have to smile and pretend to be happy, while deep inside i was slowly crying. Yet i didn’t make it obvious in my face, for the first time I wore a mask to hide how I truly felt. I have always been a very open and straight forward person so it was very hard for me.

He went ahead because he has a online game tournament he has to attend at around 8pm.
I suddenly found myself staring at the empty seat, his seat right in front of for 20 minutes.
Tears were already building up i was about to burst into crying.
But i made sure to get a hold of myself…
At that moment I don’t even care were I am, I was thankful that I had sufficient strength to hold back my tears.

I suddenly found myself getting drunk with my friends in Mango... I just want to escape and forget that it ever happened.. My friends were there to comfort me and give me a hug. Finally I ended up crying in Mango in front of my friends.. I just have to let it out.. for my own sanity sake.

even if its the party place in cebu, i really didnt care..

Prince of Persia and the Sands of Time

If you have been a PSP addict since it first came out. Then I am sure that you are familiar of this PRINCE OF PERSIA GAME.

Up to date, the game has revolved into a trilogy namely

• Prince of Persia and the Sands of Time
• Prince of Persia and the 2 Thrones
• Prince of Persia and the Warrior within

The Sands of Time:

Dastan is a 6th century prince of Persia who joins forces with a princess called Tamina. Together they try to prevent the Sands of Time, an ancient force of magic that gives its possessor the ability to reverse time, from falling into the hands of an , Nizam who plans to use its powers to take over the world.


Now what got me excited was the thought that they are making this into a movie. Now I know that this has been announced late March of 2004 when they are planning to a movie.
But then again, a lot of things could happen within that span of time.
What got me excited was when I watched the early news prior going to work, they announced it that the trailer is already out! NICE!

The best part of the news, is that Jake Gyllenhaal will play as Prince Dastan the lead character (NICE!)

This film is scheduled to be released 3rd quarter of next year! I can’t wait!

Here is the official Trailer of the Movie