Saturday, May 17, 2014


Dear Mr. Complicated,

This letter is 6 months in the making. It took me 6 months to sit down in front of my laptop to write a letter to you.  Yes, it has been 6 months since that day.

 It took me this long to muster enough strength to face all the feelings (the good and the bad) I have carefully wrapped with all the tears I shed and buckets of beer I consumed to act as an envelope and sealant.

Remember those times when we would be invisible to the world? We would turn off our phones or at least place it on Silent-Vibration Off.  We were happy in our own little world.  There we shared everything our opinions, heart and soul. 

We fought about the best Anime of all time, best movie and favorite dishes. Korean vs. Japanese, I still believe it’s Japanese! 

We kissed like there was no tomorrow and cuddle till we fall asleep.

I was HAPPY and I know you were HAPPY also.

For the first time after a very long time, I let someone inside my heart.

I remembered you use to comfort me when I got stressed out at work and you would just listen to me and hug me like there’s no tomorrow.  

I still remembered when you thought that I was asleep. You whispered something to me that made me cry.. “Dhon.. sana nagging babae ka nalang… “I felt like a knife pierced through my heart. I waited for you to fall asleep and cried at the bathroom.

That was the beginning of the end. 

I was such in a dark place for 6 months even until now. 

I guess I was partly to blame since I know from the very beginning you didn't want to be in a relationship that it was just for fun and good time. 

I wish things were different..
I wish you were braver
I wish i was a bit stronger 

I went as far as cursing and making a Deal with GOD..

I guess I need to take the hint that there are just something that are not meant to be. 

just so you know... i am still teaching my heart to stop loving you. i haven't had much progress and it will take some time. i know one day we will both come to realize and understand the purpose of the time and the Love we both shared. 

I know together with that realization is a glue that will allow me to piece my heart back together so i can learn to love again with all of my unbroken heart. 



Tuesday, May 13, 2014

Random thoughts in Gigantes Island

Sunday, April 20, 2014


I am trying to figure out what the appropriate punctuation mark I should place in my tittle.  still juggling If it should be a question mark or an exclamation point.  I don’t want to sound like a hypocrite but this isn’t exactly my first starting over blog. In fact I believe this is my 3rd and yet I still find myself writing about this again after almost a year of sabbatical from my blog.

Almost a year ago a friend of mine told me that I lived in never never land.. a fantasy of my own creation in the virtual world where I am just happy writing my “the what if’s” of my life.  He was concern that I will be like peter pan the boy that forgot to grow up.  That I will be happy with the possibility of a good life and forget to “Live a Life”. That statement got me thinking the whole night after our catch up session.

After that.. I simply decided to stop writing about the possibility of a good life and start living my life.
I went out into the world and experience what life has to offer.
In a span of almost a year..
Happiness with my new Job and a very considerable pay raise from my previous job
I went through heartaches and severe depression because of Mr. Complicated.
Trials and Triumphs that I face on a daily and weekly basis with the clients
Start up a totally new team and processes.

All of that.. I went through in just 12 months – 365 days.

I kept my promise. I went out to live a LIFE.  Yet after all that, I still find myself missing my old world.

Blogging has always been therapeutic to me and has kept me sane for a long time.
Writing my thoughts, Feelings, Opinions and Lessons I have learned.

I don’t wish to be famous in the blogosphere. My only wish in doing this is to give insights to some fellow bloggers and readers about certain things to help them through tough times. Like what other blogs has done for me.

So. I made a new promise to myself. Continue to write and blog.
Think of this as your PAY IT FORWARD…

Hello Blogosphere… I am back.. Back for good.


Wednesday, April 16, 2014

Sunday, April 13, 2014

Someday. .

Random thoughts inside my head..
i realized that because I loved you unconditionally.. when we broke up.. i lost a part of me...

Someday I will be able to gain that back..

I will....

Monday, June 10, 2013

Day 1 - Random Thoughts

I suddenly found myself staring at the rain and then realize that it is indeed over.
It took almost 24 hours for that news to really sink in to my system i guess it was just waiting for the Vodka to vanish so i can take over.

As i was staring at my phone, i realize that i was about to send a message to you like what i always do to keep you updated on what i have been doing and telling you to Eat, Rest and this also includes the I love yous.  

Today was Hell for me. I am constantly fighting the urge to cry and to send you an iMessage to tell you to choose me instead of him. That i deserve your love and not him. These Thoughts and ideas just keep on popping in my head.. that i actually play my MUSIC on a MAX Volume so i won't hear myself think anymore and just focus on my work and the task that needs to be accomplished.

I am waiting for that time that i will be tired... Tired of feeling sorry for myself, Tired of having to feel like crap everyday and waiting for you to change your mind.

 I must accept reality.. It’s never gonna happen. 

Sunday, June 9, 2013

Starting a new

I asked myself while I was smoking. "What did you learn today?" i answered enthusiastically. "I learn that in the Game of Love. Sometimes you win, sometimes you lose. But no matter what happens do not give up on your dreams. If one person walks out on you and leaves you high and dry. Remember that is just one Love Lost versus a hundred or even thousand people who still loves you. The kind of love they can or will offer you don’t matter, Love is Love and it is Universal..."

So i will go to sleep tonight with that thought in my head and i will know that tomorrow will be great day.  It’s time to start a new. 

Wednesday, December 26, 2012

Open Letter - Wish Comfort Love

Have you ever wished that you have the "God-Like" ability to go anywhere you want in a speed of thought?
Me… not a day goes by that I don’t wish for that gift.

Through that gift, I am able to comfort you, be with you and hold your hand even if we are doing anything.
Just staring at the ceiling or outside counting stars while we paint together our hopes and dreams.

Every time we talk on the Phone, I get this tingling pain in my chest. The thought that I might be able to see you but i cannot touch you, Kiss you or hold your hand. This distance between us is like a prison without walls and the clock is ticking. It’s only a matter of time before we reach our breaking point and that scares the hell out of me.

But i have to be strong...i have to be strong not just for me but for “US”.
I have always told you that love transcends distance and if our love is strong and real it can overcome anything. I believe in that.. I hope you do as well.

Hold on.. I know we can make it through.

Always remember… I love you.

Thursday, December 6, 2012

Loveyourself Is here in Cebu

Finally.. TheLoveyourself Project has expanded here in Cebu. I have waited for this for a long time.

Now i am a proud member of Loveyourself Cebu!

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Sunday, January 8, 2012

Day 1 of 366 - Fresh

For 2012 - will start fresh on all aspect of my life. From Food to love life. I think I need it.. Scratch that. I DESERVE THIS.


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