Everyday I watched his profile in facebook and everyday I ask myself “Should I go for it?”.
Should I invest my emotions after so many failed relationships before? Like what they said. Love is a risk everyone must take. But as a self confessed “LOVE CYNIC” i would rather want a calculated risk.
The type that I will know my percentages, this is probably caused by endless staring of excel sheets.
Everyday he has a new Journey, a new escape.
His facebook is full of pictures, trophies of his past, present and even future conquest. He has conquered almost the entire ASIAN vacation destination. The suddenly as I was watching the movie Shawshank, morgan freeman who played as “RED”. Quoted this;
“I have to remind myself that some birds aren't meant to be caged. Their feathers are just too bright. And when they fly away, the part of you that knows it was a sin to lock them up DOES rejoice...”
So maybe for now when its so obvious that he wants to be free, I will let him be.
But I will not be holding my breath, since I know that deep in my heart. The only name that he will be calling me is a FRIEND… but for now.. I will accept that, but I will always be secretly hoping that he will also take the risk of falling in love. I know I will even if it’s not a CALCULATED RISK.