Monday, April 27, 2009
Words of Wisdom at 5 in the Morning
Saturday, April 25, 2009
CAGED BIRD
Everyday I watched his profile in facebook and everyday I ask myself “Should I go for it?”.
Should I invest my emotions after so many failed relationships before? Like what they said. Love is a risk everyone must take. But as a self confessed “LOVE CYNIC” i would rather want a calculated risk.
The type that I will know my percentages, this is probably caused by endless staring of excel sheets.
Everyday he has a new Journey, a new escape.
His facebook is full of pictures, trophies of his past, present and even future conquest. He has conquered almost the entire ASIAN vacation destination. The suddenly as I was watching the movie Shawshank, morgan freeman who played as “RED”. Quoted this;
“I have to remind myself that some birds aren't meant to be caged. Their feathers are just too bright. And when they fly away, the part of you that knows it was a sin to lock them up DOES rejoice...”
So maybe for now when its so obvious that he wants to be free, I will let him be.
But I will not be holding my breath, since I know that deep in my heart. The only name that he will be calling me is a FRIEND… but for now.. I will accept that, but I will always be secretly hoping that he will also take the risk of falling in love. I know I will even if it’s not a CALCULATED RISK.
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
Put Your Records on
Put Your Records on
Thanks to Yona for sharing this really nice song! Yey!
I was amazed by her voice Damn!
Being a workaholic, this song actually makes me relax especially if I am tense or not in the mood…
aka BAD CONVERSION, ETC. ETC.
and i want to share this guys with you and hope it has the same calming effect (*wink)
Enjoy!
Artist: Corinne Bailey Rae
Title: Put Your Records on
I received an email through facebook, I don’t even know what kind of email it was. But I just have a couple of things to say.
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Subject: WOW
D,
I don't understand why...why I was deleted in your facebook, but I know you have some reasons... if it's worth it, then it's fine. I know I can’t stop you. But i hope things will be better between the people involve, whatever the issue maybe. I don't know how or where I offended you for me to deserve such treatment. But I understand. Like what i have said...you have you're reasons...I just hope we can talk about this.My apologies...
M.
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Note: I just translated the message to English since it was mostly in Cebuano dialect.
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Subject: Re: WOW
M,
One, don’t give me the crap that you don’t know why we were hurt. Ill tell you; after we watched the T2 movie, you guys informed us that you were going home. So me and K went to watch another movie, grabbed a couple of GPS and went home. I thought we were having a bonding session. But then on Easter Sunday, well someone posted pictures that you went somewhere and was drinking and well from the look of things were having a great time.
I even texted you were we were, don’t give me that crap that you did not know. I used the same number that I called you requesting that you buy us a ticket ahead.
I guess you lost our number? Or you forgot about us? Great! From now one we will forget about you too..
So that night I realize, I know who my true friends are. They are the friends who are not embarrassed to be with us just because we are who we are. You know what I might be a little harsh. I personally don’t need your friendship! You have been degraded from a true friend to nothing more than an acquaintance. I already have good friends, I don’t need more.
Please relay the message to the others.
Love,
D
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Note: I did not send this email yet; I want them first to wonder. I am also checking if this would violate my email etiquettes, since in my line of work. email is a means of communicating with colleagues, clients, bosses etc.
I am sad that i am able to write this very angry email to a friend.
but i guess some friendships are not ment to last and i am cool with that like he said "i have my reasons" and i am very confident it is valid.
-D
Monday, April 20, 2009
Lost Generation
My peers and I care about this earth
And all of this will come true unless we choose to reverse it .”Now read it again in reverse.
Thursday, April 16, 2009
The Sign
For the longest time, I have been looking for that sign…
One day, I just woke up and realize that it has happened…
The thing that I have been seeking for…
The sign.. my sign
I felt both fear and excitement…
Fear of the unknown…
Excitement – new adventure and new challenges awaits me
Slowly I am packing my bags… but I will travel light...
I Hope I am taking the correct bus and exploring the correct route…
cause once I start this there is no turning back
-D
Monday, April 13, 2009
MONDAYS
When I haven’t even gotten any chance to get out of my station for smoke, coffee break or even take my lunch.
How do I even begin to describe my harsh Monday?
Reports here reports there and reports almost everywhere!
How do I even start to pick up the pieces of my shattered Monday?
Slowly but surely.. Making sure not to cut myself in the process
How do I even begin to contemplate on the BAD NEWS on a Monday?
Unbelievable news, that has just reached my ear. That could cost us more than what we can afford to loose.
Now you tell me, how do I even begin to love my Mondays?
Saturday, April 11, 2009
--FRENEMY--
I so bored lately, in order for me not to die of boredom, i created a post dedicated to my
Frenemy. Thanks to this website I just happened to bump into (http://myzticreflection.tripod.com/bitchyquotes.html), I can finally say this bitchy quotes/poems and dialogues and dedicate it to them.
Just in case you are not familiar with the term, here is the meaning.
According to my best friend’s (Google) cousin (Wikipedia.com).
In personal relationships, the use of the term "frenemy" has become increasingly used to describe two (or more) people who are apparently friends, but are actually enemies. Such relationships may occur due to the desire (of either) to keep a close eye on the actions of the other (i.e. keep your friends close, but keep your enemies even closer).
It is commonly used to describe two people who are apparently friends, but actually dislike each other. This may be because they feel the need to keep up appearances, or because they do not want to lose mutual friends.
Now, I know that this is all too surreal for you guys. We all have friends like this, so far I have around 4-5 people who I consider as a frenemy. I mean come on, don’t think I am that stupid not to know you are talking behind my back. Well guess what! we are also talking behind your backs times 10 to the 20th power (AHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAH). Anyways, here goes.
To the Ugly duckling (who will never be a swan)
- Poor girl or boy (*wink), desperately trying so hard. Got busted one too many times, I am not saying that I am handsome... But hey I am not ugly either.
“What a shame...looks like the ugly fairy kissed you on both cheeks!”
“Mirrors don't talk and lucky for you they don't laugh!
To the Feeling Bright (whose head is as empty as a noodle bowl on winter)
- Poor girl or boy (*wink), I just have one thing to say “Correct Grammar and Pronunciation - [pruh-nuhn-see-ey-shuhn] since you are very special I got you a poem: yey!
“Roses are red violets are blue
sugar is sweet and so are you,
but the roses are wilting, the violets are dead
the sugar bowls empty and so is your head”
To the Great Pretender (Hallucination with a touch of Delusion of grandeur)
I pretend, pretend, and did I say he pretends? I won’t say anymore so as not to divulge anything. He/she/it is a delusional girl. Suffering from post traumatic feeling syndrome. When all of his potential BF/GF/Partner is blown away by the air that he exhales. (hahahaah)
What is your worst sin? My vanity. I spend hours before the mirror admiring my beauty. That isn't vanity, dear, that's imagination.
To the Feeling Important
Since I cannot find any quotes, dialogue or any bitchy lines about this. I am just going to say it straight.
YOU ARE NOT!
ohhh you are here pala?!
But then again guys, we all have a lot of frenemy. You might think I am the devils advocate right about now. But hey I cannot blame you. But I can explain something,
“I’m an angel! Honest! The horns are just there to keep the halo up straight!”
Have a Happy Easter you guys!
Friday, April 10, 2009
A Black Saturday Reflection
Its Black Saturday and we are here at the office working…This is supposedly the time for soul searching and resting once mind, body and soul. Now I am not here to judge, people considers drinking or shopping as a way to relax, while others prefer something else. So whatever helps its fine *wink. Me I like the good old fashion, sleeping, DVD marathon and hanging out with friends.
I was also reflecting what BOB ONG wrote, (It’s in tagalong – so please bear with me)
“Nalaman kong hindi final exam ang passing rate ng buhay. Hindi ito multiple choice, identification, true or false, enumeration or fill-in-the-blanks na sinasagutan kundi essay na isinusulat araw-araw. Huhusgahan ito hindi base sa kung tama o mali ang sagot, kundi base sa kung may kabuluhan ang mga isinulat o wala. Allowed ang erasures.”
.. And I couldn’t agree more, but the line that I struck me the most is “Huhusgahan ito hindi base sa kung tama o mali ang sagot, kundi base sa kung may kabuluhan ang mga isinulat o wala” I am asking myself, with the things that I am doing with my life, did it make any sense? Did it make a difference? These are just some of the questions that filled my head.. Then there was silence.. Then I took a break and smoked outside.
.. I need change; I need to change certain parts of myself. If it means me leaving my comfort zone, I will. I am just waiting for the right time and opportunity to do so.
I was also reflecting on what my good friend told me” take charge and create that opportunity instead of waiting for it”. So I am waiting for a sign. I have been praying for it and asking for it.
The sign….
The light….
-D
Monday, April 6, 2009
The Wheel of Fortune
You are The Wheel of Fortune
Good fortune and happiness but sometimes a species of
intoxication with success
The Wheel of Fortune is all about big things, luck, change, fortune. Almost always good fortune. You are lucky in all things that you do and happy with the things that come to you. Be careful that success does not go to your head however. Sometimes luck can change.
What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.
Sunday, April 5, 2009
This Holy Week
This Holy week, since I had my fair share of SUN, SAND and yes even SUN BURNS….
I plan to stay at home and meditate, try to understand were my life is heading…
Including my past pains, present burdens and consider my future plans…
In terms of life in general, love and career
Hopefully, when the bells of Easter strike I would have rejuvenated my spirit and found the answers I have been seeking…