I suddenly
found myself staring at the rain and then realize that it is indeed over.
It took
almost 24 hours for that news to really sink in to my system i guess it was
just waiting for the Vodka to vanish so i can take over.
As i was
staring at my phone, i realize that i was about to send a message to you like
what i always do to keep you updated on what i have been doing and telling you
to Eat, Rest and this also includes the I love yous.
Today was
Hell for me. I am constantly fighting the urge to cry and to send you an
iMessage to tell you to choose me instead of him. That i deserve your love and
not him. These Thoughts and ideas just keep on popping in my head.. that i
actually play my MUSIC on a MAX Volume so i won't hear myself think anymore and
just focus on my work and the task that needs to be accomplished.
I am waiting
for that time that i will be tired... Tired of feeling sorry for myself, Tired
of having to feel like crap everyday and waiting for you to change your mind.
I must accept reality.. It’s never gonna
happen.
