Dear Mr. Complicated,
This letter is 6 months in the making. It took me 6 months
to sit down in front of my laptop to write a letter to you. Yes, it has been 6 months since that day.
It took me this long
to muster enough strength to face all the feelings (the good and the bad) I
have carefully wrapped with all the tears I shed and buckets of beer I consumed
to act as an envelope and sealant.
Remember those times when we would be invisible to the
world? We would turn off our phones or at least place it on Silent-Vibration
Off. We were happy in our own little
world. There we shared everything our
opinions, heart and soul.
We fought about the best Anime of all time, best movie and
favorite dishes. Korean vs. Japanese, I still believe it’s Japanese!
We kissed like there was no tomorrow and cuddle till we fall
asleep.
I was HAPPY and I
know you were HAPPY also.
For the first time after a very long time, I let someone
inside my heart.
I remembered you use to comfort me when I got stressed out
at work and you would just listen to me and hug me like there’s no tomorrow.
I still remembered when you thought that I was asleep. You
whispered something to me that made me cry.. “Dhon.. sana nagging babae ka nalang… “I felt like a knife pierced
through my heart. I waited for you to fall asleep and cried at the bathroom.
That was the beginning of the end.
I was such in a dark
place for 6 months even until now.
I guess I was partly to blame since I know from the very beginning
you didn't want to be in a relationship that it was just for fun and good time.
I wish
things were different..
I wish you
were braver
I wish i was a bit stronger
I went as
far as cursing and making a Deal with GOD..
I guess I need
to take the hint that there are just something that are not meant to be.
just so you know... i am still teaching my heart to stop loving you. i haven't had much progress and it will take some time. i know one day we will both come to realize and understand the purpose of the time and the Love we both shared.
I know together with that realization is a glue that will allow me to piece my heart back together so i can learn to love again with all of my unbroken heart.
Love,
DHON
