I received this SMS from an old friend about Code Name: Single and I thought It was kind of harsh (Probably because I am single) at first. Then I realize the reason why I reacted to this it was because I was confronted with the truth.
Non-sugar coated came out of no-where slap kind of TRUTH.
Reality hurts and is depressing but it really is up to you if you let in prison you or set you free…
Reasons why some people are single:
Destiny Addict – Hoping and waiting for DESTINY to happen or work it’s magic
Perfectionist – Choosey with Super High Standard
BUSYBEE – Workaholic! Married to his Work (Familiar!)
Friendship Theory – “We are Friends and it should stay that way”
X to the nth Power – Has not gotten over his X or past relationship
Family Feud – Scared of his parents!
Heart Attack – Afraid of falling in love and getting hurt
(Previous topic: Getting Fat and plans of going to the gym)
DhonPal: I am still Fat, I will need to loose more weight..
Trainer: no you are not.. You are actually HOT right now
Trainer: hehe
DhonPal: haahahahhaa
DhonPal: hmmmmmm
Trainer: Listen to Ne-Yo's Together
Dhon Pal: I think you have a crush on me? (Joke like manner)
Trainer: Yes.. for quite sometime now.. I just think you are Insensitive
--- Silence ---
Dhon Pal: Yes.. for quite sometime now.. I just think you are Insensitive really now? Trainer: Yes.
(Chat continued with me pushing another topic – music videos)
At this moment, I felt my blood rushing into my face that is causing me to blush…
For the longest time, I have considered TRAINER to be just a really good friend.
One that only exists in my face book and yahoo messenger, for almost a month or so of our being friends, we only see each other when I logged in to my facebook. We never had any actual physical meet up.
Yes! I admit I am a sleep addict, I usually sleep (hibernate) during my rest day. When I say sleep it should never be less than 10 hours a day for two days. Meeting up during my rest day is never an option.
This made me ponder on things that I swore I would never do… that includes drugs, getting really really fat, death secondary to stress and fall in love and get hurt in the process…
Is this really worth my time? I guess I could give it a shot and hope for the best. Like what I previously posted regarding finding your soul mates, it’s all about taking the risk.
It's been a long time since we all last met for a movie, lunch or even just to catch up. So i was contemplating on the very slow downloading speed of my PC. my YM was on and i got to chat with Paul. we had a lot of things to talked about.. Life, Fashion, trends and bitching about someone we know and really don't like (We all do it.. no use trying to pretend). So when the topic of love life opened up and and he ask me how is my love life... i responded like this: "..in love with Shaun.. in the movie shelter"
"i am falling in love with a man who does not exist except on the silver screen. i spent my entire RD watching and re-watching the same old film. i think it's just SAD... No Scratch that.. i think its just down right depressing! - Dhon 06.25.2009
The rest was history! This was one of the most liberating thing i said that day. :)
“ I am tired of being the Gardener in all of my relationships! Sometimes I just want to be the ROSE! No wonder I am sooo in Love with Shaunin the movie Shelter... he was a big freaking gardener in their relationship” -Dhon 6/28/2009
"Contemplating in the beach"
Post script: Rose is someone who is always being taken cared of, Gardener is someone that takes care of the rose.
Everyday I watched his profile in facebook and everyday I ask myself “Should I go for it?”.
Should I invest my emotions after so many failed relationships before? Like what they said. Love is a risk everyone must take. But as a self confessed “LOVE CYNIC” i would rather want a calculated risk.
The type that I will know my percentages, this is probably caused by endless staring of excel sheets.
Everyday he has a new Journey, a new escape.
His facebook is full of pictures, trophies of his past, present and even future conquest. He has conquered almost the entire ASIAN vacation destination. The suddenly as I was watching the movie Shawshank, morgan freeman who played as “RED”. Quoted this;
“I have to remind myself that some birds aren't meant to be caged. Their feathers are just too bright. And when they fly away, the part of you that knows it was a sin to lock them up DOES rejoice...”
So maybe for now when its so obvious that he wants to be free, I will let him be.
But I will not be holding my breath, since I know that deep in my heart. The only name that he will be calling me is a FRIEND… but for now.. I will accept that, but I will always be secretly hoping that he will also take the risk of falling in love. I know I will even if it’s not a CALCULATED RISK.
How do I even begin to love Mondays? When I haven’t even gotten any chance to get out of my station for smoke, coffee break or even take my lunch.
How do I even begin to describe my harsh Monday? Reports here reports there and reports almost everywhere!
How do I even start to pick up the pieces of my shattered Monday? Slowly but surely.. Making sure not to cut myself in the process
How do I even begin to contemplate on the BAD NEWS on a Monday? Unbelievable news, that has just reached my ear. That could cost us more than what we can afford to loose.
Now you tell me, how do I even begin to love my Mondays?
In personal relationships, the use of the term "frenemy" has become increasingly used to describe two (or more) people who are apparently friends, but are actually enemies. Such relationships may occur due to the desire (of either) to keep a close eye on the actions of the other (i.e. keep your friends close, but keep your enemies even closer).
It is commonly used to describe two people who are apparently friends, but actually dislike each other. This may be because they feel the need to keep up appearances, or because they do not want to lose mutual friends.
Now, I know that this is all too surreal for you guys. We all have friends like this, so far I have around 4-5 people who I consider as a frenemy. I mean come on, don’t think I am that stupid not to know you are talking behind my back. Well guess what! we are also talking behind your backs times 10 to the 20th power (AHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAH). Anyways, here goes.
To the Ugly duckling (who will never be a swan)
- Poor girl or boy (*wink), desperately trying so hard. Got busted one too many times, I am not saying that I am handsome... But hey I am not ugly either.
“What a shame...looks like the ugly fairy kissed you on both cheeks!”
“Mirrors don't talk and lucky for you they don't laugh!
To the Feeling Bright (whose head is as empty as a noodle bowl on winter)
- Poor girl or boy (*wink), I just have one thing to say “Correct Grammar andPronunciation - [pruh-nuhn-see-ey-shuhn] since you are very special I got you a poem: yey!
“Roses are red violets are blue
sugar is sweet and so are you,
but the roses are wilting, the violets are dead
the sugar bowls empty and so is your head”
To the Great Pretender (Hallucination with a touch of Delusion of grandeur)
I pretend, pretend, and did I say he pretends? I won’t say anymore so as not to divulge anything. He/she/it is adelusional girl. Suffering from post traumatic feeling syndrome. When all of his potential BF/GF/Partner is blown away by the air that he exhales. (hahahaah)
Since he/she/it is another case. Here is a dialogue just for you.
What is your worst sin? My vanity. I spend hours before the mirror admiring my beauty. That isn't vanity, dear, that's imagination.
To the Feeling Important
Since I cannot find any quotes, dialogue or any bitchy lines about this. I am just going to say it straight.
YOU ARE NOT!
ohhh you are here pala?!
But then again guys, we all have a lot of frenemy. You might think I am the devils advocate right about now. But hey I cannot blame you. But I can explain something,
“I’m an angel! Honest! The horns are just there to keep the halo up straight!”
1. "Kung hindi mo mahal ang isang tao, wag ka nang magpakita ng motibo para mahalin ka nya...?
2. "Huwag mong bitawan ang bagay na hindi mo kayang makitang hawak ng iba."
3. "Huwag mong hawakan kung alam mong bibitawan mo lang."
4. "Huwag na huwag ka hahawak kapag alam mong may hawak ka na."
5.. "Parang elevator lang yan eh, bakit mo pagsisiksikan ung sarili mo kung walang pwesto para sayo. Eh meron naman hagdan, ayaw mo lang pansinin."
6. "Kung maghihintay ka nang lalandi sayo, walang mangyayari sa buhay mo.. Dapat lumandi ka din."
7. "Pag may mahal ka at ayaw sayo, hayaan mo. Malay mo sa mga susunod na araw ayaw mo na din sa kanya, naunahan ka lang."
8. "Hiwalayan na kung di ka na masaya. Walang gamot sa tanga kundi pagkukusa."
9. "Pag hindi ka mahal ng mahal mo wag ka magreklamo. Kasi may mga tao rin na di mo mahal pero mahal ka.. Kaya quits lang."
10. "Kung dalawa ang mahal mo, piliin mo yung pangalawa. Kasi hindi ka naman magmamahal ng iba kung mahal mo talaga yung una."--talaga? haha
11. "Hindi porke't madalas mong ka-chat, kausap sa telepono, kasama sa mga lakad o ka-text ng wantusawa eh may gusto sayo at magkakatuluyan kayo. Meron lang talagang mga taong sadyang friendly, sweet, FLIRT, malandi, Pa-FALL O PAASA."
12. "Huwag magmadali sa babae o lalaki. Tatlo, lima , sampung taon, mag-iiba ang pamantayan mo at maiisip mong hindi pala tamang pumili ng kapareha dahil lang maganda o nakakalibog ito. Totoong mas mahalaga ang kalooban ng tao higit sa anuman. Sa paglipas ng panahon, maging ang mga crush ng bayan nagmumukha ding pandesal, maniwala ka."
13. "Minsan kahit ikaw ang nakaschedule, kailangan mo pa rin maghintay, kasi hindi ikaw ang priority."
14. "Mahirap pumapel sa buhay ng tao. Lalo na kung hindi ikaw yung bida sa script na pinili nya."
15. "Alam mo ba kung gaano kalayo ang pagitan ng dalawang tao pag nagtalikuran na sila? Kailangan mong libutin ang buong mundo para lang makaharap ulit ang taong tinalikuran mo."
16. "Mas mabuting mabigo sa paggawa ng isang bagay kesa magtagumpay sa paggawa ng wala"????
17. "Hindi lahat ng kaya mong intindihin ay katotohan, at hindi lahat ng hindi mo kayang intindihin ay kasinungalingan"????
18. "Kung nagmahal ka ng taong di dapat at nasaktan ka, wag mong sisihin ang puso mo. Tumitibok lng yan para mag-supply ng dugo sa katawan mo. Ngayon, kung magaling ka sa anatomy at ang sisisihin mo naman ay ang hypothalamus mo na kumokontrol ng emotions mo, mali ka pa rin! Bakit? Utang na loob! Wag mong isisi sa body organs mo ang mga sama ng loob mo sa buhay! Tandaan mo: magiging masaya ka lang kung matututo kang tanggapin na hindi ang puso, utak, atay o bituka mo ang may kasalanan sa lahat ng nangyari sayo, kundi IKAW mismo!"????
19. "Ang pag-ibig parang imburnal...nakakatakot mahulog...at kapag nahulog ka, it's either by accident or talagang tanga ka.."
… Of all the weapons of destruction that man could invent, the most terrible –and the most powerful –was the word. Daggers and spears left traces of blood; arrows could be seen at a distance. Poisons were detected in the end and avoided… but the word managed to destroy without leaving clues.
~Paulo Coelho
I would just like to share to you guys one of my most favorite phrases from one of Paulo Coelho’s book.
Personally I agree with this saying, especially true in Philippine history. Our national hero Dr. Jose Rizal knew better than to fight fire with fire. He took a different approach, he used words.
The Bad thing about this is sometimes we do not know if we already hurt the person.
As what Paulo Coelho said, there is no physical evidence of hurt (Blood, bruises etc.)
Such power is within all of us; it is up to us if we use it for a good or evil
Just as I was enjoying my usual website surfing and blog hopping
In the hopes that some of my neurons would wake up and I could finally compose a blog
Suddenly receive an SMS from an ex-lover
He informed me that a lot of people were texting him that I was meeting up people and that he was happy for me.
I was not really angry at the fact that he was happy and he was not bitter. I guess this people did not know that we broke up and they are reporting or telling him that I was out meeting people in the hopes of breaking us up. This is not new to us, I don’t know why these people are so into ruining relationship
Is it because they are just bitter? Or they are just lonely?
I hate the fact that I am in the prying eyes of people who are just waiting for me to screw up!
"I hate it when people are watching my ever move and is just waiting for me to screw up!
That’s just great! You really don’t have to bother and tell me what my mistakes are... Trust me I have enough friends telling me that…."
When will this problems stop, The first ever problem that I had this year was with our Neighbors. They are probably the rudest and the most uneducated bunch of people I know. I mean come on, there speakers were pointed in our window so you can just imagine the noise, and they had a pig farm beside our house (we are living in the city). Thank GOD! My mom who was a force to reckon with took the matters on to her own hands, NO she did not kill them (I wish), NO Voodoo/Kulam (maybe we should have, how much is it?). My mom took this matter to the Barangay (Town Captain) were everything was settled down. One lesson though, “Never wrestle with the Pigs in the mud, cause only the pigs will enjoy”.
Now currently I am having problems with my PC, This has been going on for always 2 weeks now. I escalated this concern with my DSL provider and after 2 weeks of follow-up calls, Emails and Technicians visiting our house. The root cause? VIRUS! I have a virus in my PC. That’s Just Great!!!!!!!! Somehow this virus will not allow me to use my browser to go to the internet. But if you use the command prompt, if you Ping a site, the connection is GOOD. I have to reformat my PC and it causes money, I am permanently locking my PC and make sure that I am the only one using it. Just when I was enjoying GARENA (online games for DotA).
(Sigh) I hope that at least i will have a break....
It was a daily, weekly and yearly overview of my horoscope. I am not much of a believer but I do believe that they serve as a guide only. The yearly overview Rocks! To dissect it properly, it has been a hard year for me (2008), I have felt that I had worked my ass off; my work was draining my social and personal life. there are also happy times but more on downs rather than up.hope this year will be much better than my last! Well according to my horoscope, IT WILL! i am 100% positive (the secret)
Year 2009 Overview
You tend to attract just about everything you want this year through your warmth and magnetic Sagittarian That said, you may also go through some great transformational shifts in 2009 as you realize that your happiness no longer depends so much on possessions, but rather on the deeper meaning associated with things symbolic of love and sharing. Instead of controlling what's happening around you, you now have experiences that perhaps you don't understand, but in allowing new insights to come in and have a voice, the rearranging of your resources and your values gives you a sense of security and growth.
By surrendering to your higher power, you realize you don't have to struggle as much to get what you want. As you open up to the ideas and energies flowing around you, your priorities shift dramatically. And -- you'll be happy to know -- you don't need to work as hard to enjoy sensual pleasures either!
Great opportunities arise as your explore your potential, and discover what kind of environment best serves you in your endeavors. Being in touch with this part of yourself helps you align with your higher purpose and your drive to continue will lead to great success. Life becomes much easier when you trust that the universe will take care of you.
What a week! During my birthday week, super busy and yet super fun Lets start it off with a drinking session with some of my colleagues in the office, that was my inspiration of my YIKESentry almost a week ago.
I am still trying to meet my quota for the conversation 101 in the office, trust me I am not getting any help (Hello?) and I am so far behind, I need a new plan.. hmmmmm
The next big event that happened was my birthday! My full moon birthday to be exact, at the same time it was our ops dinner at Mooon caféat The Walk IT park, were Q, gave me a yummy money and since she was not able to find my shirt size and was afraid of giving me a shirt that does not fit, she gave me a Electronic GC for ayala! Yey! (Thanks Q!).
On that same week, I noticed that the moon was also full. I was able to read this!
“The full moon, which peaks Friday, December 12 at 8:37 AM PST at 21º Gemini-Sagittarius is not only the brightest of the year, but perhaps also the most galvanizing. This is the fifth and final Super Moon of 2008.”
i really do not know what that really means, i just hope its more into prosperity!
Yes! I am guilty of this, being AWOL on my Blog
I went on awol for the reason’s that there were aspects in my Personal life and love life that needed immediate attention, we rarely have quality time with Pooh, with my parents and even with my siblings. So my goal before the year end would be to have at least one bonding time with them… one day at a time.
Post Script: To those who greeted me on my Full Moon Birthday! Thank you from the bottom of my heart. Thank you!
Ever had that feeling were everyday is becoming a DRAG?
And everything is just falling apart. It’s another Manic yet depressing Monday for me.
It’s been universally acknowledge that you cannot balance the two aspects of your life, Love life and your career. What if for some reason both, had a problem on that same day? How would you feel?
Me, I felt like the world was ganging up on me….Bad news from work and problems with my relationship (although I am thankful to pooh for being a strong and steady rock, and for not giving up on me!)
Being their leader, I am helpless… maybe because being a leader to my high profile team I developed this mother hen attitude, the need to protect them all the time. I know its wrong but I am only human! I also have feelings; I get hurt every time someone is trying to break my team apart.
I just wanted to escape! Get the hell out of the office and go home, cry and eventually fall asleep!
To Whom It May Concern:
I just wish you will also talk to them and explain to them the reason for a change; we could only do so far. I will not initiate or be proactive in telling you to talk to these agents; you need to do it at your own whim. They deserve an explanation as to why we are doing this and not just cause “it’s a business requirement”
