Day 1 - Random Thoughts

I suddenly found myself staring at the rain and then realize that it is indeed over.

It took almost 24 hours for that news to really sink in to my system i guess it was just waiting for the Vodka to vanish so i can take over.

As i was staring at my phone, i realize that i was about to send a message to you like what i always do to keep you updated on what i have been doing and telling you to Eat, Rest and this also includes the I love yous.  

Today was Hell for me. I am constantly fighting the urge to cry and to send you an iMessage to tell you to choose me instead of him. That i deserve your love and not him. These Thoughts and ideas just keep on popping in my head.. that i actually play my MUSIC on a MAX Volume so i won't hear myself think anymore and just focus on my work and the task that needs to be accomplished.

I am waiting for that time that i will be tired... Tired of feeling sorry for myself, Tired of having to feel like crap everyday and waiting for you to change your mind.

 I must accept reality.. It’s never gonna happen. 

Starting a new

I asked myself while I was smoking. "What did you learn today?" i answered enthusiastically. "I learn that in the Game of Love. Sometimes you win, sometimes you lose. But no matter what happens do not give up on your dreams. If one person walks out on you and leaves you high and dry. Remember that is just one Love Lost versus a hundred or even thousand people who still loves you. The kind of love they can or will offer you don’t matter, Love is Love and it is Universal..."

So i will go to sleep tonight with that thought in my head and i will know that tomorrow will be great day.  It’s time to start a new. 

Love Letter | Please Don't ask me

If I would be asked for a wish,
I wish to wake up everyday
to the sound of someone’s breath on my neck,
the warmth of the body next to mine,
the touch of the hands on my skin,
and the feeling of the heart, beating with mine.
Knowing that I could never find that feeling,
to someone I am not dreaming.

If there’s anyone with a gentle word,
Who speaks with sweet honesty and truth..
Like a spark of light that illuminates my soul,
A devotion that can even make the angry waves still,
Or a caring heart that keeps me out of the rain,
With the LOVE as the ultimate roof,
And the reason to complete me as a whole,
Then you might be the one that I been waiting for…

I want to be with someone very special,
the one I can always lean on and depend,
to be there through the years, sharing laughter and tears,
as a partner, a lover, a buddy, a friend,
whatever words you used to comprehend.
I've learned the full meaning of sharing and caring
and having dreams all come true and fulfilling;
Please don't ask me if I know how to LOVE
Because I've learned to be in love and be loved...

A very good friend of mine created this Love Letter for a very special someone in his life right now.

MAHAL KITA KASI

MAHAL KITA KASI… I LOVE YOU BECAUSE… GIHIGUGMA KITA KAY
Any of those lines sound familiar to you? You might have said it or wrote it to someone you love.

You got it right. LOVE …its February, the so called love month…

Thanks to Clarence a.k.a the jaded knight, he introduced me to this clip in you tube entitled MAHAL KITA KASI by Nicole HIYALA. Its basically a song that combines the cheesiest lines you can think of to either express or explain LOVE..

Anyways.. enjoy!








Mahal Kita Kasi
by Nicole Hyala

Bangin ka ba? Kasi
Nahuhulog na ako sa ’yo, naman kasi
Unggoy ka ba? Kasi
Sumasabit ka sa puso ko, naman kasi
Pustiso ka ba? Kasi
You know I can’t smile without you
Pagod na pagod na ako
Maghapon ka na kasing tumatakbo sa isipan ko
Kasi naman kasi

Mahal kita
Bagay tayong dalawa
Papicture nga
Para mapadevelop kita
Hindi tayo tao, hindi rin tayo hayop
Bagay tayo, bagay talaga

Papupulis kita, kasi
Ninakaw mo ang puso ko, naman kasi
Kuto ka ba? Kasi
Palagi ka sa ulo ko
Naman kasi
Apoy ka ba? Kasi
Alab-alab I love you

Magsalbabida ka nga
Kasi baka malunod ka sa pag-ibig ko
Kasi naman kasi

Mahal kita
Bagay tayong dalawa
Papicture nga
Para mapadevelop kita
Hindi tayo tao, hindi rin tayo hayop
Bagay tayo, bagay talaga

Kamukha mo si Papa P, Papa P (Ding Dong)
P Papa P, Papa P
P Papa P, Papa P (Dingdong)

Exam ka ba, kasi
Sasagutin kita agad-agad, naman kasi
Drugs ka ba? Kakaadik ka kasi, kasi, naman kasi
Kulangot ka ba? You’re really really hard to get
Posporo ka ba? E di posporo rin ako
Para match
Kasi naman kasi
Mahal kita
Bagay tayong dalawa
Papicture nga
Para mapadevelop kita

Hindi tayo tao, hindi rin tayo hayop
Bagay tayo, bagay talaga

Pustiso ka nga, kasi
I really really can’t smile without you.

Dialogue: INSENSITIVE

(Previous topic: Getting Fat and plans of going to the gym)


DhonPal: I am still Fat, I will need to loose more weight..
Trainer: no you are not.. You are actually HOT right now
Trainer: hehe
DhonPal: haahahahhaa
DhonPal: hmmmmmm
Trainer: Listen to Ne-Yo's Together
Dhon Pal: I think you have a crush on me? (Joke like manner)
Trainer: Yes.. for quite sometime now.. I just think you are Insensitive

--- Silence ---

Dhon Pal: Yes.. for quite sometime now.. I just think you are Insensitive  really now?
Trainer: Yes.

(Chat continued with me pushing another topic – music videos)

At this moment, I felt my blood rushing into my face that is causing me to blush…

For the longest time, I have considered TRAINER to be just a really good friend.

One that only exists in my face book and yahoo messenger, for almost a month or so of our being friends, we only see each other when I logged in to my facebook. We never had any actual physical meet up.

Yes! I admit I am a sleep addict, I usually sleep (hibernate) during my rest day. When I say sleep it should never be less than 10 hours a day for two days. Meeting up during my rest day is never an option.

This made me ponder on things that I swore I would never do… that includes drugs, getting really really fat, death secondary to stress and fall in love and get hurt in the process…

Is this really worth my time? I guess I could give it a shot and hope for the best. Like what I previously posted regarding finding your soul mates, it’s all about taking the risk.

DHONPAL